Friday, May 20, 2005

So far, so good....

Ok... I have tried to put entries in for 2 days and each time, I lose them.  So, hopefully this one will make it :)  

About the previous entry~the death row inmate has not yet had the tests to see if he is a match for his sister (the news report was wrong).  This is why the man is asking for the delay, so the tests can be run.  I still don't see why that is taking this long, but I'll keep you posted on this.  

Wednesday at work was busy and loud.  Who knew 14 toddlers could make more noise than if standing on the runway at Indianapolis International Airport?!  I've had the joy of listening to jets take off and land, and they are louder than a nascar race :)  But I'd put my money on tots any time after that day!  I had a headache by 10:30 am.  Thinking I need to bring my earplugs from now on.  

Yesterday was the girl's carnival at school.  It was a dark stormy day and the event was held indoors.  She had a great time.  I, on the other hand, damn near had an anxiety attack right there in the middle of the place.  It was so noisy (seems to a recurrent theme here) and so many parents and kids, and extended families~I had to take Grace to the bathroom a couple of times so I could regroup.  

I don't know what it is with me anymore.  I used to adore crowds and try to be in the spotlight.  But the older I get, crowds get me all paranoid, and all the voices just mangle themselves into the sound of a freight train running straight through my mind.  Yesterday, I broke out in a sweat- but I was shaking and freezing.  Then the nausea hit, and back to the bathroom we went.   Once inside, and its silent~it all goes away... POOF~GONE~ just like that. 

So, I know its all in my head, but what the hell started all this in the first place?!  I should say it only happens when I'm inside.  Had this thing been held outside, I'd have been fine.   Oh well, I'll deal with it.  We did make it the whole time, so she didn't miss out.  I just feel bad that it happens.  Next time I'll be sure and take a valium before we go.  Oh.. and don't worry, they're low dose(2 mg) and I only take one if I'm going out.  Just wish my mind would let things go sometimes....  

Today is payday :)  So we went to get my check and Gracie wanted Cracker Barrel for breakfast.  Fine with me... I've had it with fast food joints anymore.  I'm kid-mealed out, hopefully she is too ;)  Even though we only go out once a week... it gets old fast.  Thankfully, its time to start cranking up the grill :)  

Once she wakes up from her nap, we have to return her videos and I'm sure she'll want more.  The video store I go to has all their kids movies for free, so I don't mind taking her on Fridays for her movie picks of the week.   

I must say I am so disappointed about the way 'Revelations' ended!  Funny thing is, I had a feeling they would rush the ending.  And they did.  Then they left us hanging, with both the Messiah and the anti-Christ here on Earth~how low was that?!  Dirty, rotten.....  The rest of it was so good, and then they half ass wrap up all the stories.  Reminds me of the Stephen King movies.....  

I can't wait for 'Lost' to start again though!  I am truly impressed by this show.  I never thought it would make it, let alone be any good.... 

Speaking of fall programming, 'Joan of Arcadia' fans will be sad to know it has been canceled.  And one of my favorites, "The West Wing' will move to Sunday Nights.  I don't know the time slot, but wanna bet it goes up against 'Desperate Housewives'?  Again... dirty, rotten....  

My theory is when a show starts getting moved around, it doesn't make it much longer.  The same theory applies to characters marrying, or having children.  Once that happens, the show is gone by the following season.   Yeah, I watch way too much TV....   

I'm halfway through the Cat House story... so don't give up hope just yet ;)  

Cat

7 comments:

redbaranjj said...

I am the same way when I am in a very crowded loud place...as long as I know where every exit is, and where every bathroom is...I can usually calm myself back down...But I know that feeling all to well...it really sucks!  
I really hate when they move things around on TV...you get use to it in one spot and then the next thing you know the whole show is gone...  Maybe that's why I hardly watch any TV anymore...
*hugs*
ps...hope you have a nice quiet weekend!!

vernae69 said...

Seems there's a few journalers with connectivity issues ;)

I'm not in to crowds that much myself.  When I go out I prefer to be alone, probably because I'm surrounded by freight trains and sirens all day long.  Never felt weird, or like a panic attack was going to hit, but I still prefer solitude.


Gotta love payday.  Wouldn't it suck if payday was Monday?!?!?

Lost...it's a family thing here.  We enjoy it very much... it's thrilling, thought-provoking, and then there's Sawyer...nuff said.


Can hardly wait for some Cat House Lovin'!

~V~

pixiedustnme said...

ok 1) i love that song!  2) I heard it was going up against extreme make over home - although the later time slot makes more sense!  either way i think it's a bad move with the revamp of west wing for the new cast it should stay in it's old time slot and keep as many viewers as it can......not sure i can follow it to sunday!

mum24boyz said...

I know it, I was so bummed over the ending of revelations!! I was like... that's it???? all that for this ending????!!  :0    Robyn :)

quartrlyfecrysis said...

I have 'panic attacks' in crowds, but always have.  School was difficult for me, as are malls.  Now just the idea of going to Pey's school for something makes me freak.  I don't know what it is, possibly just the feeling of having to find so many ways out.  Kind of like when I'm driving, I always look for an alternate to hitting the car in front of me or being hit by the one behind me.  I'm a 'what if' person and I wish it would go away!
Revelations recapped all the episodes on Bravo last night and I recorded them all to watch so I culd catch up with what i missed!  I'm pissed that they cancelled Joan!!!! It was just getting to the climax!  GRRRRR.  But LOST is getting REALLY good :)
xoxo~Bernie

nighterror5 said...

Sorry to hear about your illness Cat, seems so many people have that disorder and can stop somewhat of your life because of it! I have the anxiety pretty bad but the panic attacks hit me while I am sitting on the couch, sleeping or watching someone give birth or giving birth.

Pay Day rocks... Oh wait what is payday again?

Goodluck to you and your daughter throughout the summer!!

~Theresa~

onecrazymomto5 said...

I haven't even kept up with TV this past year.  I try to catch Desperate housewives as often as possible but that is it.  Hubby tries to catch all the wrestling he can and if that interferes with anything I might want to watch - sorry Colleen!!!  At least he knows better than to mess with DH.  i'll have to get with Bernadette since she said she was recording all the Revelations!!!!!!!!

Colleen