Monday, January 10, 2005

Spouting...

I wonder if I made the right choice, decisions,

Questioning daily, every second I'm awake?

I look and I feel nothing, muted and numb,

Undeserved and unwarranted, yet can't forsake.      

 

What I thought I so wanted, wasn't.

Though too late to turn back, it is done,

I have no way to right this wrong-

Hide it carefully, and bite my tongue.      

 

I know its felt, seen behind my smile-

Despite my desperate attempt to cover,

Its in my actions, my words, a simple look.

There are scars now to, one day, discover.      

 

The sun is always shining bright in my world,

Passing over and leaving me in her shadow.

It always looks the same, unchanging-

To me, this world in which we wallow.      

 

I'm told light is love and love is truth-

Merely words, no substance without actions.

If chaos and peace live hand in hand,

Redemption can equal satisfaction.      

 

As years fade, even decades fly past-

In the same spot and place in time. 

I evolve, but all remains the same,

Am I moving, or is it all in my mind?      

 

A precious gem once lived here,

Now buried in darkness, down so deep.

Still alive, breathing well, awaiting...

To be turned into a diamond for keeps.

7 comments:

thelovetrain said...

Expressive poetic talent, Cat. If you have 'the blues', I hope that you soon feel better.

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valphish said...

This is wonderful, Cat!  Such talent...I love it! xox

alilcountrycharm said...

Wow! Your such a wonderful writer ;-)
Spouting or not, you have a wonderful way of expressing words and feelings like no one else i've known!
Hugs & Blessings,
~Angel

redbaranjj said...

What beautiful words you write Cat...even if it is spouting, its so heartfelt, honest, and beautiful!
*hugs*

vernae69 said...

Beautiful Cat...just beautiful!

quartrlyfecrysis said...

Woman, your words flow so beautifully!

xoxo~B

visionarydiva1 said...

Your poem is soo beautiful I really like it

Amy

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